Who knew that there are so many ways to eat one orange and that all of them combined could sum up my present state of mind? I peel a piece and suck it slowly, lazily, savoring the sweet tangy flavor, feeling like anything is possible and that there is no need to rush.
Breaking off another section, I wolf it down, greedily wanting more, hardly able to control myself, aware that there is so much to experience.
Drawing every bit of juice out of the next, I work hard to make sure no liquid is left, not because I like the taste, or even how it drips down my fingers and on to my arms, but just because I can. It makes me feel powerful, and as a result, like I have finally regained control over some part of my life.
The scent of an orange is fresh and natural. I have just showered, but the citrus smell overpowers my shampoo, my soap, and I find myself hesitating before I wash my hands. For the next few minutes, as I write this, whenever I notice myself slipping into self doubt, sadness, or even anger at the kids for breaking my reverie, I sniff my fingertips and I'm thrust back into the present. The scent reminds me of times past, of a healthier, more confident woman with her whole life still ahead of her, while simultaneously instilling hope for the bright future of a mature mother, still very much a woman, and just as strong; maybe stronger than before.
Who knew that being with an orange for 10 minutes could change someone's life? It makes me wonder: If a seemingly meaningless fruit holds so much potential, what are we (who, at times, fling cruel thoughts of self hatred at our inner child) capable of?
CF Winn is the award-winning author of The COFFEE BREAK SERIES, a
hilarious group of short stories meant to be read while on break or in
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